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“The sweet angel of revolution whispering in your ear. What does that sound like? I don’t know. I don’t believe in angels. But if I did, it would probably sound like this…” – Boots Riley

It was Monday morning, day four of the writing business conference that had taken me to Las Vegas proper for the first time in my life.

Oh, I’d been through Vegas over the years: heading to the Las Vegas Catholic Worker for a radical conference in honor of Dorothy Day’s 100th birthday. Flying there en route to the Nevada Nuclear Test Site and Creech Airforce Base to meet with representatives of the Shoshone Nation and get arrested on radioactive soil. I’d stood and prayed in the Sekhmet Goddess Temple with Pagans and participated in guerilla, gender-swapping Eucharist with radical Catholics, broken Pesach bread with Jews, and walked for miles beneath the harsh and beautiful desert sky.

But I’d never actually been to, you know, the place people think of when they say the words “Las Vegas.” Bright lights and gambling. Alcohol and excess. Addiction central.

It took an intrepid crew of writers to finally get me to the constant, blaring music, the ‘80s cover bands on outdoor stages, the slot machines around every corner, the cigarette smoke, the roving bands of desperate, yard-long-drink lubed revelers, and the old downtown town that looks like some noir Hollywood film set.

On the Monday in question, I awakened at 5:15, staggered through the casino to the gym, staggered back, showered, had half a cup of tea, and by 7:45 was finally on my way. Backpack on, ready to face the great outdoors, I headed to a downtown cafe for a writing date before the conference began again.

I stepped from the elevator into the lights, swirling rust and golden carpets, glass sculpture chandeliers, and slot machines. Passing bar televisions blasting sports to empty rooms, inhaling the scent of last night’s cigarettes, I was heading toward the shark tank when I heard a familiar voice. Singing. Loudly.

It was the voice of an angel. An angel I recognized. An angel known as Silk-E.

“Woke up this morning, brushed my teeth and spit out the lies…” she crooned. I looked around. Surely this Vegas hotel wasn’t playing The Coup?

“We comin’ with tens of millions, them villains be oh so shady…” she continued. Wow. Had the success of Boot’s Riley’s indie film “Sorry to Bother You” influenced some cog in the Vegas machine? Had a worker bee tasted the nectar of freedom for a moment, and slipped a radical song in among the cavalcade of pop music, commercials, and old R&B?

As I rounded the corner towards the beignet stand where workers were setting up for the morning, I realized what was happening.

The music was blasting from my backpack.

Somehow, through some random key press, or glitch in its internal operating system, my iPad had turned itself on, and begun blaring the potent cocktail of rock, hip hop, and soul. Party music for radicals. Thing is, though, it was not playing the song I’d listened to on repeat while writing the morning before. This was a song from it’s own computer brain. A song of joyous revolution.

I slung my backpack from my shoulders and, standing next to the shark tank and beignet stand, on the swirling, gaudy carpet, beneath the fake Chihuly chandeliers, I laughed.

This was Vegas, baby, a place where anything could happen, en route to anywhere.

Pulling my iPad from my pack, a message flashed on the screen. There was an operating error and it was shutting itself down.

Clearly, the universe was sending me a message: electronic devices sometimes have minds of their own.

Or: even errors contain hidden gifts.

And: We carry the revolution with us, and its joyous song can burst through when we least expect it.

Anywhere. At any time. Even in Las Vegas.

I zipped up my pack, pushed open the heavy glass doors, strode through the cigarette smoke airlock, and stepped out into a gorgeous morning. The air was fresh and clear after a nighttime rain.

The sweet Angel of Revolution had whispered in my ear, just like Boots Riley said she would. Well actually, she’d blasted her message, singing loudly to anyone within range who was paying attention.

But sometimes that’s exactly what is needed to bust through.

The sky overhead was blue. The murals climbing the building walls were bright.  My writer friends were just ahead, half a block away. It was going to be a good day.

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There are long arcs of evolution, the rise and fall of empires and species, the birthing and dying of stars.

We cannot know the larger cycles.

Our bravery will not save this world.

We cannot save this world.

Nonetheless, we must –– it is imperative–– find our way in this world. We must find a way ––our way–– to contribute. To do less than this is to court devolution or despair.

Bravery just might help us save each other. One day at a time.

In my theology, there is multiplicity.

In my theology, there is wholeness.

In my theology, there is individuation.

In my theology, there is connection.

Think of your body.

Your body –– along with emotions, thoughts, and some unexplainable essence –– is part of what constitutes you, or what you may call “I”. Plus, this beautiful, lung expanding, heart pumping, skin tingling entity of the body is made up of many, many parts.

Some of those parts are cells. Each cell has a center, and a boundary. Each cell has a job to do. Each cell exists within you, communicating with other cells, not necessarily conscious of the whole of you, but doing its job anyway.

That’s each of us, in this cosmos. We each have a center and a boundary (though some of us may need to work on strengthening both). We communicate with one another. We try to do our job, even not knowing what the larger connections may be.

In my theology, it is important to recognize that the connections are there. Because to do otherwise? That may cause us to feel we are not important…or too important.

We are vital to the running of the cosmos, because we each have our own special role to take on, our work to do. And yet, we are simply one of many, all doing our work. Special. Not special. We have our own center, yet we are not central to the whole.

We must live in concert with everything else in the cosmos, to the best of our abilities.

We must find ways to work, no matter how difficult or useless, exhilarating or precious, that may feel.

And part of that work is, of course, engaging the full gamut of what it means to be human. Rest. Enjoyment. Friends. Service. Pleasure. Puzzling. Pondering. Waking up. Engaging our physical forms.

Expanding our capacity to be human.

Exercising our capacity to care. To bear witness. To love.

So even though our individual bravery will not save this world? Be brave.

Be as brave as you can, whatever that means today. Show up for your life, your work, in whatever ways you can. Some days? That means you show up to a warm blanket. Some days? That means you throw your whole self into your task.

Only you know what your work is, just like each cell inside your body.

Keep doing that work. It is a miraculous thing.

October, 2018

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Let the evil be revealed.

Let its name be shouted from high places.

Let it be whispered in the lowest, darkest corner.

Let the evil be revealed.

Let the poison be routed.

Let the rot be exposed.

Let all see the truth for what it really is:

That the oppressors have always raped and stolen and laughed.

That the oppressor’s garments

Are made from the tattered skins of their victims.

That the oppressor’s homes

Are built from the bones of the dead.

Let the evil be revealed.

Let its name be shouted from high places.

Let it be whispered in the lowest, darkest corner.

Let the evil be revealed.

Let the poison be routed.

Let the rot be exposed.

Let all see the truth for what it really is:

That the oppressors have always raped and stolen and laughed.

That the oppressor’s plates

Are filled with food snatched from the bellies of the poor.

That the oppressor’s music

Is the crying of children ripped from their parent’s arms.

Let the evil be revealed.

Let its name be shouted from high places.

Let it be whispered in the lowest, darkest corner.

Let the evil be revealed.

And may the names of evil be always cursed with justice.

May the hallways walked by evil tremble now in fear.

We hex you. We hex you. We hex you.

Let. Us. Live.

(Let us love.

Let us reveal the shining hope in every aching heart.

Let us build this world anew.)

September 28, 2018

This is a companion to the curse I wrote in July. Further explanation for the triangle and heart are there. Triangle of justice, heart breaking with compassion.

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